Recovery

I am a man in recovery and at one time I thought that it meant that I was just not doing drugs or drinking. Now after 2-1/2 I am starting to understand that it is more than that. It’s about change and personal growth. Basically for me it means not being a complete ass wipe all the time.

            I guess at the heart of this blog is something a friend said to me this morning. He was praising a friend of mine that picked up 90 days clean and sober. But in those 90 days he has been kicked out of two houses beat up and almost jumped for his actions. His latest escapade is something that I would not have done even in my using days. My friend said he got 90 days and that is what we are trying to do here. It has bothered me all day.
            If that was all it was about to me I would still be a cheater, a lair, and a thief. I am so thankful that when I started on this path of recovery I was ashamed of the person I was and started to make changes in the way I acted. Maybe I should let just be ok with the fact that some people will stop doing drugs but continue to be worthless. But for now I am not. I am learning new lessons everyday and today’s is another one on acceptance and tolerance.
            For now I will just keep my boundaries with people like that and live my life the way this program has taught me.